The Great Puzzle #7: The Munchkin, the Forest and the Ducks

The Great Puzzle #6: A Little Goodbye to Antwerp

I was so happy to be stepping on that train this morning. I was going to visit one of my favorite cities and some of my favorite people. But the Antwerp I had left didn’t seem to be there anymore. With my vision no  longer blurred by stress and anxiety, the place I arrived at had changed drastically.

The streets I rushed through countless times with my headphones in, music blaring, on my way to a little studio I had started to call home suddenly called for all my attention. All of a sudden there were shops I never cared to notice before and statues of people long gone that never caught my eye. It almost felt like I was on vacation trying to take in and remember as much of it as I possibly could before having to leave it behind in this strange place in the past you can only place by looking at 

pictures or pointing it out on a map.

I’m on my way home now, I guess. And as the train takes me away from the place I spend the last two years of my life, I begin to realize just how much I am going to miss this place and the people in it.

The Great Puzzle #5: Changes. Changes everywhere...

Pfoo… It’s been a crazy busy week full of changes. Firstly, I moved back home from my university room and from my room at home, I moved into my sister’s old room. Which, for someone who doesn’t like change, is a lot on its own. And to know that these pretty big changes are only a side effect of an even bigger change is downright scary.

The Great Puzzle #3: Ranty Ranty

What: The necessity of shameless days in bed with a collection of feel good movies and books, lots of books.

Who: “the hopeless romantic who can’t get her shit together”.

Warning: I am feeling a tiny bit ranty.

I, so far, have watched Love, Rosie; Magic Beyond the Words; What If; Two Night Stand; Begin Again; Remember Me; Stuck in Love and, get ready for it, Bridget Jones’ Diary. I  contemplated watching Christmas movies, but they almost always involve family parties. And when I think of family parties, I think of the phrase “How is your love life doing?” or “Are you in the friend zone?” or “How can a girl looking like you still be single?” or “You should really look for a boyfriend, go out more.”. And I never replay by saying what I actually want to say. I just say “Whatever happens, I’m not in a hurry. I have other things to do rather than running after some guy.”. Often, that is enough to shut them up for a little while. Especially when I tell them the running after some guy line. They give me “the look”. The oh no she is a feminist now look. I love that look. But I would much rather would have told them something completely different. And it goes a little bit like this:

“Dear close-minded person,

Firstly, there is no such thing as “my love life”. And this is not because I have a loveless life. It is because I only have one life, mine. And there is so much I can do with it. Therefore, my success in life and the way you see me should be based upon the things I accomplish and how I have accomplished them. Not by the person/people who just happened to stand next to me while doing so.

Secondly, I am not in the friend zone. If that is even a thing. The way I see it, the friend zone is this thing people assume they are in when they have fallen in love with a friend and do not dare to tell them for they are scared it will ruin the friendship. I can understand that fear. But, I also think that you should tell that person how you feel. Who knows what might happen. And if nothing does, fine. If the friendship is worth it, it will survive.

Thirdly, very close-minded person, I would want to say that good looks can only get you so far before the inside starts to show. But, then you might assume that I am ugly at the inside. And I like to think otherwise. So, I’m afraid you are a lost case.

Lastly, I don’t like to go out. Never have, never will. And no,  this does not make me antisocial.”

But, even if I said all of this exactly the way I meant it, it probably won’t have the impact I want it to have. The person will probably be quiet for a while, a little bit baffled. The silence will become too awkward and we will part ways. Then, when the awkwardness has past, that person will rediscover his or hers ability to speak. And from this point on it won’t be long before the sentence “She is so dominant. No wonder she is still single.” Is outed. *sigh*

My dearest close-minded person, it is probably not your fault. But please, do try to get your shit together. And if you do, feel free to join me for a shameless day in bed with a collection of feel good movies and books, lots of books.

The Great Puzzle #2

Today didn’t start of too well. But, after the two hours I wasted self-pitying in bed, it turned out to be a productive day. I studied the material I had to study, picked up my new sunglasses (see sassy selfie), baked some cookies (see delicious photos) and played in the garden with my beautiful goddaughter (see adorable photo).

There isn’t a lot the tell really. I tried to keep myself busy all day so I wouldn’t fret over the negative things. I tend to dwell on the most bizarre stupid little things and it often ruins my day. And I don’t want that to happen anymore. So, productiveness is the answer!

I will leave some pictures of the day below. I hope you had an amazing day and if that’s not the case, eat a cookie and tomorrow will be better!