21 years of
age. How and when did that happen? I swear it was just yesterday me and my cousins
were riding our bikes and climbing trees. How did I get to this point? And
where has all the rest gone?
As I’m
writing this, . I’ve just come home from a play by one of the best, if not the
best, companies in Belgium. I drove there, met a friend and had a good time.
?ow, I’m sat in the living room. The rest has gone to sleep and I figured this
is the perfect occasion to sneakily munch on some snacks meant for the guests of
my party tomorrow. But don’t tell anybody that.
This might
not seem like a lot or something exceptional. But exactly one year ago things
were a lot different. I held a small party at my studio and cooked for a handful
of friends. I did this because I wasn’t feeling well mentally and didn’t like
to leave my safe place. I didn’t drive because two years prior I had been in an
accident and couldn’t find the courage to climb behind the wheel. And on top of
that, I felt everything I was slipping away. For two years I drowned myself in
school work. Sometimes I got the grades I needed sometimes I didn’t.
Every year,
right after my birthday, it was time to go home and start studying for the
upcoming finals
in May. Whereas every other year I would start this period with
newfound energy to study, I couldn’t even look at my notes this time around. I
lay in bed for days on end, told myself I was doing the work I needed to do and
plainly waited for this time to end as I slept through most of it.
One year
later, I picked myself back up again. Found my love for writing once more (and
got to go to play because of it). I managed to keep my friends whilst following
my own path and in my blog, I found a hobby to keep me up during the nights
instead of making me sleep through the days. It’s now that I realize that
things are really starting to fall into place.
I hope you
are doing well. And if not, please keep going. Someday, eventually, things will
turn out all right.
P.S.: At
first I tried to take pictures with my two year old goddaughter Lune. Turns
out, putting a toddler in front of a camera with three balloons to hold still
isn’t the easiest thing to do.
